Could I be a stay at home mom?

i'm not so sure. granted i should not base this conclusion on today. no, not today. today was one of those days where i just want to get in bed by 6pm (which coincidentally is now). deacon is clingy, fussy and very needy because he is still cutting those back molars. i stayed home from work today since the daycare has a rule against kids with fevers. oh wait - did i mention that he is testing me on everything. "what mom, you say i can't touch this cabinet door - hu, funny, i do believe i can, see, yeah, for sure, i can touch it mom - now, what do you think you are going to do about it." i'm pretty sure that is what he has said in his head over and over today. (hold that thought, he is literally opening the cabinet as i type...)

ok, i'm back. now he is putting a foreign object in his mouth while standing on a dvd case, that can't be safe. i think the hard part of today was balancing a teething toddler with my work. i did have to work - i can't work from home without actually working (or can i?). so when i was making calls i prayed that he wouldn't talk or cry. when i put him down for a nap i prayed it would be a long one. it started out promising, until the dogs went nuts and started barking. that would-have-been-great-nap turned into a 30 minute tease for me. then i had to spend the next 2-3 hours trying to get him to fall back asleep. not easy while working.

so yeah, based on today i would say no, i couldn't hang as a stay at home mom. however, today wasn't normal. if i stayed at home, i wouldn't have to work. which means i would have more time for deacon, more time for cooking, cleaning and laundry. so i think for now, i'd say that yes, i would be a good stay at home mom but a bad work from home mom. not that either is even an option for me, or us. but one day, it will be an option and it will be a reality. then i will update this about how great i am doing with staying at home.

for now just take a look at my adorable son: